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2008-10-16T19:58:00.001+08:00

Craving for food now........

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2008-09-17T09:51:00.001+08:00

Mission sErvices were great!! I'm really blessed & honor to be part of the Great Commission in the KOG together with HOPE!!

It's great to see & heard many grow in passion & desire to reach not only locally but gobally.

My fire for YOU is burning & ongoing... to be within!!!

Lord help me to have a bigger Heart to LOve, to see what YOU see...

Here I am....Use me!!

2008-08-25T13:19:00.005+08:00

While searching the web, happen to see this picture. Jorris does this scene look familar??? It remind me of one of CG jorris share, during worship in the carpark they were singing "God he reigns", & it just rain.

Something for u pherd GenJ:

Really thanks for everything. I believe this past few months had not been easy for U, in ministry, in school & ur role in the family. Many things to go through? I'm impress by your spirit in ways you handle & the faith U had to walk thru all this.
Thanks for ur encouragement & listening. Jia you...I believe God had a great plan for u. Yeah, let walk on in faith & strive till the end of the race. Gambatae!!! Love u...

2008-08-24T06:58:00.003+08:00

Yeppie, finally am back from work. After taking a bath, it just feel so refreshing. I love the morning breeze, it's so cooling, watching the people going for breakfast, morning exercise. The best part is still the sky, it's just so beautiful & calm. Giving me a time of peaceful quietness with God. A time where I just can't help but thank Him.

Have been quite sometime, no should be almost a month I miss out the fellowship time & visiting my grandfather. My grandfather is getting more skinny, can said it's just the skin & the bone. Seeing him, I feel so hurt. Now he don't even have the strength to walk. I know he feel that he's a burden to the family. I hope to see him going each day, smiling & happy. "Ah gong I love you" I really really want to see him receive Jesus into his life, the Joy that only Jesus could fill his heart. Pray pray pray!!!!

Miss alot of things, JUMP concert, ushering, fellowshipping, birthday celebration. Of course, happy belated birthday Miss Pooi Yee.... wooohoo!!!

Pooi yee :

Hey hey, happy beLateD birthday!! Sorry for the late wishing, hahha. Wanna affirm U for passion & fire for God. A gal who look blur yet her heart is big for God. U never give up everytime u face difficulties, never give up when rejections keep coming. I love your spirit, U never fail to bring laughter to the people around. Thanks thanks. Sis wanna enecourage U to walk out of that comfort zone, to do even more & greater for the KOG. Gambatae!!!!

Start to feel tired le... woohooo gOOd nitex

2008-08-18T12:24:00.002+08:00

- Hope beyond that horizon-

Jeremiah 29:11 : For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

2008-08-15T12:51:00.001+08:00

" It's time to set your sights on a path to experience a life with God-Daddy more satisfying than you ever imagined." - The power of a simple prayer can do so

2008-08-06T12:25:00.003+08:00

--There is no other way to grow strong spiritually than to go through trials.--
James 1:12
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. Here again, you don't get the rewards (the crown of life) until you have persevered under trial and stood the test.

2008-07-26T01:57:00.004+08:00

After so long... finally back to blogging!! Haha, just finishing doing some research related to my work. As what was said, "Learn as you grow". Have been busy recently with work & part-time course for this whole month. Really miss the time with the group. Lets see, haven't been quite awhile catching up with some of you -- my pherd, my cg, friends...... sorry my dears, will ctach up with u all very soon. Thought it's seems to be alot of things happening - got verbally perseucted, death of my close relative, a new girl was born "Jia mei", etc... God is still so faithful & loving. All I trust, the Almighty is in control & everything has it's own timing!!!

So sleepy now....have to rest le!!!

2008-05-18T19:17:00.001+08:00

You search me, You know me
You see my every move
There's nothing I could ever do
To hide myself from you
You know my thoughts, my fears and hurts
My weaknesses and pride
You know what I am going through
And how I feel inside

But even though you know
You will always love me
Even though You know
You'll never let me go
I don't deserve Your love
But You give it freely
You will always love me
Even though You know

(repeat all)

Yes you will always love me
Even though you know

----Speak of my heart----

2008-04-08T23:00:00.001+08:00

Almighty God, Sovereign of this Planet within this universe among universes,

By Your plan and power the Earth has revolved yet one more time,

and You have blessed me with a new day.

Today will be like no other day past or to come. I praise You for the privilege of being alive.

Help me to trust You with all challenges and opportunities ahead of me today.

I commit them to You. Go before me to prepare the way.

I want to be so in tune with You that what I do & say will accomplish Your will.

May I sense Your presence & make this day one of constant inner conversation with You.

As I practice Your presence, help me to trust You to guide my thinking. Give me a

special measure of wisdom, insight & discernment to tackle the problems arise today. May this be

a productive day as I haer & accept the palmist's prescription for peace: " Cast the burden on the LORD & He shall sustain you."

Belief in Your Sovereignty gives me a sense of dependance that leads to true independance. All that I have

& am is Your gift. When I am totally dependent on You for guidance & strength, I become completely free of fear & anxiety.

What You guide, You provide. Trust in Your Sovereignty provides supernatural power to accomplish what You give me to do for

Your glory. And acceptance of Your Sovereignty gives me courage. May Your Sovereignty authority abound in my Life!! Amen!!

2008-03-26T02:16:00.005+08:00

Had a time of brainstorming with shareen & elyse for the camp deco this morning. Seems like idea can't get out from my mind, don't know why!! Thank God for elyse, she is actually a very creative gal.She love designing stuffs, scrapping art....hey gal, go ahead, I believe you have the talent!!! Next time, deco can find you haha...

After everything, we went to watch a movie, Spiderwick!!! Although the poster look abit kiddish, but the story plot, I could said is quite nice!!! I never imagine that big ferice beast will die in that way...haha...Really enjoy the time spend with elyse shopping at spotlight and the movie....Yeah the unit hurddlefor camp... Let see arete camp...

Interviewer: Are U excited for the upcoming camp??
Me: yeah yeah,,,of course!!! I can do alot of stuff down there...
Interviewer: What stuff??
Me: U see...camp is a time where we are not distracted by work, by the busy surrounding. A time where I can get to know alot of other plp. and...and... breakthru...
Interviewer: So r u ready for the camp??
Me: of course....yes la!!! ...U gonna see it for urself!!!!
Interviewer: Thank u for ur time. Come on with ur gear ready!!! C u there...

This is my 2nd of MC which means my work is piling up. Oh no...
I just receive a call from my ex-manager, and I got to know there's something happening
in my office.It's about the web design again... Sinclair one of my web designer, I like working with her alot.Although we didn't met up before, she's a responsible, nice & creative person. Though she might miss out some of the stuff, she is still fast in completeing her job. Seems like my colleguage seems to get fed up with her . I do understand her stand & my colleguage stand..To said the truth, i got a bit stress up by this..As I'm soft sometimes...Thank God for talking to myex-manager, i got clear up with stuff. Now I gonna plan well my time for my job...as in the task!!!Yeah....gambatae!!!

Lord I pray for your guidance for my path.
I pray for your wisdom to speak & handle things wisely.
I pray for that peace & joy, when I face the things that against the norm.
I pray for your strength to walk on this tough time.
I pray oh Lord, open my spiritual eyes to see, my spiritual ears to hear.
I want to get more of you, more of you.....Amen!!!

2008-03-24T23:01:00.003+08:00

Awaiting for something exciting

Welcome the cute & fun sister..Our miss huirU & miss Jolene!!

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The national day eyes---red & white!!

Seems like clinic is doing more services!!!!

a noob day

2008-03-23T23:45:00.001+08:00

Had an...mmmm...interesting yet abit boring day today!!

I woke up with an feeling so tense up. My heart, there's a cry, there's

a knot..I'm just so suffocated by that!!! What is it?? I dunno, still seeking & searching...

Got up early today, to do some cleaning & stuff...& headed off to

meet the others for rehersal at Shawn's place. Ha...we did our deco

for the props. Ended up the place got abit messy. I had fun doing

the props with Jolene, HuiRu & of course my beloved sheep elyse!!

Had fun chatting & with all the sudden random question asked....

The rehersal kinda went fine...although I didn't join for the 1st half,

but kinda enjoy the rest. The firlty look Jorris, the fearful & sad Jeremy,

the mean Shawn, the 4 r&b gangster, and the rest...well though we had

alot of 'NG', it just get better each time!!! Gamatae SPians for the talent time..

My eyes seem to get worse by now!!! It hurts everytime I blink... I kinda got fruastured

because of the pain. I somehow got reminded of the body, each part is connected so closely.

Whenever one feel pain, the rest will feel discomfort because of that pain. Then..what should I do??

I think gonna rest my eyes le!!! Of course to be an encourager to the people ard & ourself!

Simply love my sheep & shepherd, the crazy & loud cripple beggars, my unit, my family, my mentor...

& my favourite companion, Jesus Christ....

You & Me

2008-03-23T02:39:00.002+08:00

In this 2 years plus jounery with Christ,
It seemed as though life was rather like a bike ride
I noticed that Christ was in the back helping me pedal.

I don't know just when it was, He suggested we change places
But life has not been the same since then.

When I had control, I knew the way
It was rather boring, but predictable
It was the shortest distance between two points.

But when He took the lead
He knew delightful long cuts,
Up mountians and through rocky places,
At a breakneck speeds, all i could do is Hang On!!
Even though it looked mad & insane,
HE just said "Pedal"

I'm worried and was anxious.
In a doubtful mind, I asked "where are you taking me"
He laughed and didnt answer,
And I learn to trust.

I forgot my boring and meaningless life
And entered into the adventure.
When i'd say "i'm scared"
He'd lean back and touch my hand.

I am learning to trust and pedal to the strangest place.
I'm beginning to enjoy the view, and the cool breeze on my face.
With my beloved and faithful companion, Jesus Christ!!!!!

Shame? Guilt?

2008-03-22T02:30:00.002+08:00

Good Friday...Easter!!! What does this day symbolizes to you??
Today I went to join my fellow colleuage in CHC jurong west for a drama "A second chance".
Claps clap...it's a great drama. It shows back 2000 years ago, Jesus's life. From John 8 to the day
He was cruxify to His Resurrection. The one who acted as Jesus, I believe as he was acting
he feel the pain & joy. The moment that is deep in my heart, is the part where, Jesus is carrying the cross
to the place of skulls where He will be nail. Every step he took, He is whip by the romans solider, I see the scars,
I can't stop but wept. Every whip, every scars, I felt the pain right in my heart.
To all my friends:

Jesus is the answer
For the world today
Above him there's no other,
Jesus is the way

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I'm somehow been thinking of topic of shame & guilt this day...

Guilt, because it emphasizes what someone did wrong, tends to elicit more constructive responses,particularly responses which seek to mend the damage done. Guilt is tied to beliefs about what is right and wrong, moral and immoral. When we violate one of these moral guidelines, it causes us to feel guilty over our actions and seek to fix what we have done (see cognitive dissonance). As a result, guilt is an important tool in maintaining standards of right and wrong in individuals and society as a whole. As such, guilt can often be used as a tool to overcome conflict.

Shame, on the other hand, emphasizes what is wrong with ourselves. It has a much more inward focus, and as such, leads shameful parties to feel poorly about themselves, rather than simply the actions they have taken. The result is often an inward-turning behavior -- avoiding others, hiding your face, removing yourself from social situations. Therefore, shame can be problematic, as it is often less constructive than guilt. In fact, shame can lead to withdrawal from social situations and a subsequent defensive, aggressive, and retaliatory behavior, which only exacerbates conflict, rather than alleviating it.

Shame can rob us from many things

(1) Rob us from having joy & peace
(2)Shame cause us to be anger & agression
(3) Shame cause physcological behaviour
(4) Withdrawal from people

** I believe that there's still alot what shame can do to us. One very significant thing I went thru is self-condemn, the painful period of my life. You know what shame lock us up..Lets break that shame barrier!!!!

=Happy Easter=

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2008-03-21T12:43:00.001+08:00

All of the sudden,

I just feel like doing nothing

Relaxing in the cool breezy beach

All of the sudden,

I just can't bring myself up to pray like before.

My mind is so tense

All of the sudden,

I do not have the faith to do things against the norm

A helpless heart that cries

All of the sudden,

I just wanna cry in the warm hands of My Father

Bringing out my burden to him

All of the sudden,

I just wanna said I Love you my friend

All of the sudden,

i thought is that me....

Yeap, is that me???

When I shout, the Lord is here, when I cry, He 's comforting me.

When I suffer, He is carrying me.

When I just don't wanna listen, He sits there patiently by my side waiting for me.

When I pray, He answer me.

When I'm happy, He laugh with me.

What more could I said, but to Love Him with all my heart.

Lord, is just so difficult to keep going, without you. The most simple things yet the most difficult things to do.

Substain me oh Lord!!! I want more of You!!!............

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2008-03-20T02:49:00.003+08:00

It's a tiring day today. Early in the morning, step into the office.....
"joella, how come this is not yet update"..."joella, can help me
to do eblast"..arrr. So many things come in one sort, i think I
have to learn to multitask in a faster way. To said the truth,
i like this job though everything seems very new to me.
Marketing ( rating 0), now shld be rating 4/10. Listening seems
easy, when it come to hands on...OMG it's like cracking my
brain juice to figure out, all the trial & error. I almost wanna
blow up...thank God for that peace & calmest to handle things.

If not, i dunno what i will be doing...heee

When I saw Elyse seems like everything is gone...

Just simply smile, sharing & laughter. Elyse, thanks

for being a part of my my life. In you, I see that

persisnt & faith, that never say die spirit. yEah!!

It's really an encouragement to me.

I can't stand le, it's 3.19am have to sleep!!!....zzZZ

agEs!!!!

2008-03-20T02:36:00.000+08:00

You Act Like You Are 22 Years Old

You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life.

You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up.

The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

What Age Do You Act?

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2008-03-17T18:18:00.001+08:00

I'm thinking, thinking & thinking..

There's a little girl in town, facing attack in her everyday life. Feeling very very tired

One day, she asked her dad:

girl: Dad, why do we have to face attacks & problem everyday??

Dad: [Silent, and He smile]...

girl: I'm so tired & sad with the surrounding. Seeing people suffer, people killing each other, why does this gonna happen..

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girl: my heart are battling, fighting, bleeding......

Dad: [Open his arm]... come to me, come to my side.....

....Her tears just flow, in that warm & caring arms.....

Here's my reply thru this song to you [A lyrics that speak my heart] :

Who am I
That You would know me from the start
Set me apart

Who am I
That You would place eternity
Into my heart

You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life, I lay at Your altar
One love, I have with You
Touch me again
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands
One word, You know I will follow
One heart, broken to You
Use me again
Your mercies follow me
For all my days

In Your presence
In Your power
Holy Spirit, I surrender

The First Post!

2008-03-16T20:33:00.001+08:00

Welcome to my Blog!

Will be updating regularly..

Promise!

Wun break promise!

If not I will be strike by lightning.

Regards,

Joella the Noob.

Guess Who's Lips are These?

2008-03-16T20:14:00.003+08:00